Dear

Slim,

1062

I

wrote

you

but

you

still

ain’t

callin’

1102

I

left

my

cell,

my

pager,

1133

And

my

home

phone

at

the

bottom

1168

I

sent

two

letters

back

in

autumn

1205

You

must

not

have

got

’em

1233

It

probably

was

a

problem

at

the

post

office

1282

Or

somethin’

1298

Sometimes

I

scribble

addr

esses

too

sloppy

1342

When

I

jot

’em

1362

But

anyways,

fuck

it,

1392

What’s

been

up

man,

how’s

your

daughter?

1427

My

girl

friends

pregnant

too,

1454

I’m

bout

to

be

a

father

1480

If I

have a

daug

ther,

guess

what

I’ma

call

her

1535

I’m-a

name

her

Bonnie.

1557

I

read

about

your

uncle

Ron

nie

too,

I’m

sorry

1622

I

had

a

friend

kill

himself

over

some

bitch

1671

Who

didn’t

want

him.

1691

I

know

you

probably

hear

this

every

day,

1735

But

I’m

your

biggest

fan.

1760

I

even

got

the

under

ground

shit

1802

That

you

did

with

Scam.

1825

I

got

a

room

1849

Full

of

your

pos

ters

and

your

pic

tures,

man.

1890

I

like

the

shit

you

did

with

Ruckus

too,

1936

That

shit

was

fat.

1956

Anyways,

I

hope

you

get

this

man,

2003

Hit

me

back,

just

to

chat

2035

Truly

yours,

biggest

fan

this

is

Stan.

2087

Dear

Slim,

you

still

ain’t

called

or

wrote,

2652

I

hope

you

have

the

chance.

2677

I

ain’t

mad,

2696

I

just

think

it’s

2712

Fucked

up

you

don’t

answer

fans.

2744

If

you

didn’t

want

to

talk

to

me

2779

Outside

your

concert

you

didn’t

have

to,

2820

But

you

could

have

signed

2842

An

auto

graph

for

Matthew.

2867

That’s

my

little

brother,

man.

2895

He’s

only

six

years

old.

2923

We

waited

in

the

blistering

cold

for

you

2968

4

hours

and

ya

just

said

no.

3006

That’s

pretty

shitty

man,

3035

Your

like

his

fuckin’

idol

3068

He

want’s

to

be

just

like

you man,

3099

He

likes

you

more

than

I do.

3132

I

ain’t

that

mad

though,

3163

I

just

don’t

like

bein’

lied

to.

3198

Remember

when

we

met

in

Denver

3236

You

said

if

I

’d

write

to

you,

3262

You

would

write

back

3283

See,

I’m

just

like

you

in

a

way.

3315

I

never

knew

my

father

neither.

3352

He

used

to

always

3371

Cheat

on

my

mom

and

beat

her

3403

I

can

relate

to

what

you’re

sayin’

3442

In

your

songs.

3456

So

when

I

have

a

shitty

day,

3487

I

drift

away

and

put

’em

on.

3519

’Cause

I

don’t

really

got

shit

else,

3549

So

that

shit

helps

when

I’m

depressed.

3594

I

even

got a

tattoo

3622

With

your

name

across

the

chest.

3656

Sometimes

I

even

cut

myself

3694

To

see

how

much

it

bleeds.

3716

It’s

like

adre

naline.

3742

The

pain

is

such

a

sudded

rush

for

me.

3781

See,

everything

you

say

is

real,

3816

And

I

respect

you

’cause

you

tell

it.

3852

My

girl

friend’s

jealous

3877

’Cause

I

talk

about

you

24/

7

3920

But

she

don’t

know

you

like

I

know

you,

Slim,

3965

No

one

does.

3984

She

don’t

know

what

it

was

like

for

people

4021

Like

us

grow

ing

up.

4043

You’ve

got

to

call

me

man.

4069

I’ll

be

the

biggest

fan

you’ll

ever

lose.

4106

Sincerely

yours,

Stan.

4135

P.

S.:

We

should

be

together

too.

4179

Dear

Mr.

4727

“I’m

too

good

to

call

or

write

my

fans”

4774

This

’ll

be

the

last

package

4807

I

ever

send

your

ass.

4829

It’s

been

six

months

and

still

no

word.

4867

I

don’t

deserve

it?

4891

I

know

you

got

my

last

two

letters,

4926

I

wrote

the

addresses

on

’em

perfect.

4972

So

this

is

my

cas

sette

I’m

sending

you.

5011

I

hope

you

hear

it.

5032

I’m

in

the

car

right

now.

5062

I’m

doing

90

on

the

freeway.

5097

Hey

Slim,

“I

drank

a

fifth

of

vodka,

5146

Ya

dare

me

to

drive?”

5172

You

know

The

song

by

Phil

Collins

5213

“In

The

air

of

the

Night”?

5232

About

that

guy

5249

Who

could

have

saved

5264

That

other

guy

from

drow

ning?

5296

But

didn’t?

5307

Then

Phil

saw

it

all

5332

Then

at

his

show

he

found

him?

5359

That’s

kinda

how

this

is.

5386

You

could

have

rescued

me

from

drowning.

5423

Now

It’s

too

late.

5444

I’m

on

a

1000

downers

now,

I’m

drowsy.

5495

And

all

I

wanted

5513

Was

a

lousy

letter

or

a

call.

5556

I

hope

you

know

5577

I

ripped

all

o’

your

pictures

off

the

wall.

5622

I

love

you

Slim,

we

could

have

been

together.

5675

Think

about

it.

5698

You

ruined

it

now,

5717

I hope

you

can’t

sleep

and

dream

about

it.

5765

And

when

you

dream,

5782

I

hope

you

can’t

sleep

and

you

Scream

about

it

5829

I

hope

your

conscious

5849

Eats

at

you

and

you

can’t

breathe

without

me.

5895

See

Slim,

shut

up

bitch,

I’m

trying

to

talk.

5953

Hey

Slim,

that’s

my

girlfriend

5990

Screa

ming

6001

But

I

didn’t

slit

her

throat,

6037

I

just

tied

her

up,

see

I

ain’t

like

you.

6084

’Cause

if

she

suff

ocates,

6108

She’ll

suffer

more,

and

then

she’ll

die

too.

6151

Well,

gotta

go,

6183

I’m

almost

at

the

bridge

now.

6217

Oh

shit,

I

forgot,

6246

How

am

I

supposed

to

send

this

shit

out?

6284

Dear

Stan,

I

meant

to

write

you

sooner,

7105

But

I’ve

just

been

busy.

7129

You

said

your

girlfriend’s

pregnant

now,

7170

How

far

along

is

she?

7197

Look,

I’m

really

flattered

7226

You

would

call

your

daughter

that.

7260

And

here’s

an

autograph

for

your

brother:

7298

I

wrote

it

on

your

Starter

cap.

7331

I’m

sorry

I

didn’t

see

you

at

the

show,

7381

I

must

have

missed

you.

7403

Don’t

think

I

did

that

shit

inten

tionally,

7446

Just

to

diss

you.

7467

But

what’s

this

shit

you

said

about

7499

You

like

to

cut

your

wrists

too?

7534

I say

that

shit

just

clowning

dogg,

7568

C’mon ~

how

fucked

up

is

you?

7601

You

got

some

issues,

Stan,

7625

I

think

you

need

some

coun

selin’

7654

To

help

your

ass

7673

From

bouncin’

off

the

walls

7699

When

you

get

down

some.

7724

And

what’s

this

shit

about

7753

Us

meant

to

be

together?

7782

That

type

of

shit

’ll

make

me

not

7819

Want

us

to

meet

each

other.

7849

I

really

think

7876

You

and

your

girl

friend

need

each

other.

7913

Or

maybe

you

just

need

to

treat

her

better.

7960

I

hope

you

get

to

read

this

letter,

8004

I

hope

it

reaches

you

in

time.

8043

Before

you

hurt

yourself

8069

I

think

that

you’d

be

doin’

just

fine.

8107

And

if

you’d

relax

a

little.

8134

I’m

glad

that

I

in

spired

you,

8162

But

Stan,

8175

Why

are

you

so

mad?

8201

Try

to

un

derstand

that

I

do

want

you

as

a

fan.

8257

I

just

don’t

want

you

to

do

some

crazy

shit.

8305

I

seen

this

one

shit

on

the

news

8341

A

couple

weeks

ago

that

made

me

sick.

8382

Some

dude

was

drunk

8403

And

drove

his

car

over

a

bridge.

8435

And

had

his

girl

friend

in

the

trunk

8468

And

she

was

pregnant

with

his

kid.

8503

And

in

the

car

they

found

a

tape

8534

But

it

didn’t

say

who

it

was

to.

8569

Come

to

think

about

it

8593

His

name

was ...

8615

It

was

you.

8635

Damn!

My

tea’s

gone

cold,

I’m

won

dering

why

~

~

65

I

got

out

of

bed

at

all

125

The

mor

ning

rain

clouds

up

my

win

dow

199

And

I

can’t

see

at

all,

257

And

ev

en

if

I

could

it

’d

all

be

grey,

335

But

your

pic

ture

on

my

wall

386

It

re

mi

~nds

me

437

That

it’s

not

so

bad,

469

It’s

not

so

bad

504

My

tea’s

gone

cold,

I’m

won

d’rin’

why

~

~

589

I

got

out

of

bed

at

all

649

The

mor

ning

rain

clouds

up

my

win

dow

724

And

I

can’t

see

at

all,

781

And

e

ven

if

I

could

it

’d

all

be

grey,

859

But

your

pic

ture

on

my

wall

912

It

re

mi

~nds

me

960

That

it’s

not

so

bad,

993

It’s

not

so

bad

1029

My

tea’s

gone

cold,

I’m

won

d’rin’

why

~

~

2163

I

got

out

of

bed

at

all

2223

The

mor

ning

rain

clouds

up

my

win

dow

2296

And

I

can’t

see

at

all,

2355

And

e

ven

if

I

could

it

’d

all

be

grey,

2434

But

your

pic

ture

on

my

wall

2484

It

re

minds

me

2533

That

it’s

not

so

bad

2567

It’s

not

so

ba

~d

2605

My

tea’s

gone

cold,

I’m

won

d’rin’

why

~

~

4261

I

got

out